Sex and Shoes

"It's like wearing sex!"

Taken from the mouth of Mitzi as she gazed hungrily at a pair of Steven Madden pink stilettos.

Yum!

Life and Music

"Are you gonna
Live your life wonderin’

Standing in the back
Lookin’ around?

Are you gonna
Waste your time

Thinkin' how you’ve grown up
Or how you missed out?

Things are never gonna
Be the way you want

Where's it gonna
Get you acting serious?

Things are never gonna
Be quite what you want

Or even at 25
You gotta start sometime

I’m on my feet
I’m on the floor
I’m good to go
Now all I need is just
To hear a song I know..."

A Praise Chorus, Jimmy Eat World

Poem for L'il Lisa

This is a poem I wrote for Little Lisa. But it could be for anyone who's felt out of place, and who's had difficulty understanding the emotional turmoil that comes with feeling a little different, sad, and scared.

Shards of Me

broken glass
splintered and brittle
jagged edges cut
i'm bleeding inside

smooth surface
worn and soft over time
reflections of what people want to see

what do i see?

contrasts

between stones, like beachcombed jewels
that friends make into necklaces
which bring smiles to their faces

and razor sharp slivers
uneven and coarse
that keep me enslaved
and alone

-- LML Sept. 24, 2005

Water Wings

I've been dreaming a lot! in the last 3 weeks and remembering at least one dream each night.

One element that keeps appearing in my dreams is water. I am either swimming in it; it is falling on me in the form of rain; my places of work and/or home are houseboats (or some structure situated on or next to water); or there are puddles or bodies of water that I need to go through to get somewhere (splashing as I go, naturally ; ).

There have been swamps and mud bogs, as well as deep pools. In some cases, the water has been clear and clean; other times it is filled with debris (like branches and logs). The water can appear in a natural setting (like a forest or wilderness), or it can be in a swimming pool-like venue.


I don't know anything about dream analysis, but I wonder what is the significance of all this water. I have a good relationship (in real life) with water, I feel calm and sensual when I swim. I feel cleansed. It's a happy place for me. But I don't have yearnings for the ocean, for living on the water, or being in the water.

Or maybe I do?

Neptune, some help please? : )

Where's Waldo?

Jennie-girl mentioned something to me yesterday, something she observed in me last night, as "the gang" got together for an outing of beer and pool and good laughs.

She wondered if my feelings of not fitting in, of feeling isolated and insecure, and wanting so badly for people to like me, stemmed from a need for me to have some space to reclaim my energy. To recharge. I always felt that I got energy from people, and I think I do. But in times of emotional fatigue, when my neediness and desire for validation rises to the surface, when I am being pulled in many directions, perhaps I do need to reclaim my space? Take some time for me. Slow down and breathe.

I feel astonished that even when things are so good in my life, when I feel that my life is full and rich, when I am aware of how amazing my friends are, and how lucky that I have such open, honest, strong connections, when I feel happy and content, I can still, in a heartbeat, get lost. Become an island floating in a sea.

Ikea Rocks!

I just have to say that Ikea rocks!

I am a complete dope when it comes to handling tools (of the mechanical kind ; ) and building anything. I have been known to put things on backwards, upside down, and inside out. My fingers are clumsy and awkward handling screws and nails and trying to line up things exactly. I tend to be a little too lenient when it comes to perfection. (I think of it as flexing my artistic & creative muscles!) I am generally content with "hm, that looks ok to ME." and, the even better, "No one will notice it if I cover it with a... "

On the best of days, I am challenged when it comes to making decisions. So for me to hit Home Depot and try to figure out the best size screw to use for something, often results in me coming home with 10 little packages of screws in various sizes, shapes, and materials.

And I am an Aries, so my patience threshold is slightly lower than most. ; )

But man I feel downright competent with Ikea DIY items! I've built a little TV stand, a huge massive 5X5 cubby bookshelf**, and tonight, I am building a couple of little benches for extra storage space. YAY for me! : )


** I confess that Dave & Amy helped me with the final touches of the bookshelf. I spent nearly an hour trying desperately to put one side of the bookshelf into the little wood knobs, and just as I'd almost have it line up, the opposite side would pop out. So, I'd go over the newly popped out side, and patiently coax each cubby into their little homes, and bam!, the other side would pop out. I went back and forth, and was about to toss the whole pile of puzzle pieces out my window, when A&D stopped by with a little much needed elbow grease and giggles. : )

girls' weekend away

Jennie and I hit the road tomorrow for a weekend away. We are in for it!!!

I suspect there will be some wine, good chats, flirty fun, shopping (naturally), some dancing, letting loose and getting wild, and lots of singing! ; )

Here's to girls!!, here's to the boys who love 'em, and here's to road trips! : )

Woohooo!

Long Weekends and Summer

What more can a person ask for? Sunshine, time off, and freedom.

Happy Long Weekend Everyone!

To those I know who are traveling abroad or within Canada - safe travels and have fun!
To those staying home and playing - enjoy!

: )