bamboo

I am weathering this storm
but I want my skin to stay supple
open to the elements around me
that may beat against my soul
and hammer the foundations of my body.

I am bending in the wind
offering no resistance
to a changes in course
or the dizzying disorientation
of being off the path.

I am finding my strength
and feeling my courageous self
yet I am responsive to throwing open my arms
to those beautiful gifts of love
in my life.

lml - november 2006

Words for the Season

"Winter covers everything; but everything's not dead."

- Sarah Harmer, "Dogs and Thunder"

I like these words, because they remind me that even though we are all starting to hunker down for the winter; even though the geese are filling the sky with their songs as they head south; even though the air feels colder and the sun is losing its strength; and even though the darkness comes so much faster...

... there is still so much life around us and inside of us.

We just need to be more resourceful during these next few months and make a point of finding that sunshine and that life and that lightness.

adjusting

like the manipulation of my spinal chord
as I lie on my chiropractor's table

the alignment of my vertebrae
falling into place
echoes the feeling of adjusting
to the situations around me

adjusting to the new distance between me and a friend
and the sadness that pours into me when I realize the loss
adjusting to the yearning that vibrates through me, when I catch a glimpse of his face or his smile.

adjusting to my new body
the change of my curves and my stature
the softness I feel
and the substance.

adjusting to this place of transition
of seeing myself far off in the distance and not able to grasp the steps I need to take to get there.

adjusting to the pieces of this puzzle of me that I need to put together.

adjusting to catching my breath, in this moment, and remembering that I have everything that I need or could ever want right now.