lifeblood

I had a very vivid dream last night. I was a vampire and, with my fangs, I remember piercing the skin of my victim's neck. I could smell their musk (I don't know if it was a man or woman) and feel the throb of their pulse against my teeth and my lips. I remember how it felt, that slight resistance before I slid my teeth into them. I remember tasting their blood, thinking that it was unlike anything I had heard or read. There was no saltiness or metallic tang, only a heavy thickness and heat. I felt it coat my tongue and my throat and slide into my body. And then, there was a rush of energy and magic - as their lifeblood filled me. I felt lightheaded and intoxicated with this blast of adrenalin.

eye on the prize

I've been head down in school and work these past few months. It's easy to forget about the world around me - I feel caught up in homework assignments and due dates, late nights and take out.

A couple of things made me lift my head up and take stock of the world around me. Yes, there is a world - a great, big beautiful ball just ripe with life, love, sadness, sickness, humor, and connection.

• The weather has slipped into its brisk, Fall rhythm edging closer to the cool white Winter that we all know is just around the corner. The passage of time echoes like a clock inside of me.
  
• H1N1 invaded my house. Everyone is fine, thank goodness, but it did wonders for giving me perspective. Oh, yes, my health ... there you are. I take you for granted, don't I? How lucky am I!?
  
• I read an incredible speech by Paul Hawken. It floored me, really. Not simply because it was a breathtaking piece of writing but because it made me smile. It made me believe. It moved me. It reminded me about some of the dreams I have and how I am taking steps to get there. And it made me ache with the desire to realize them. "I'm working on it! Just give me some time..."
  
• I saw some pictures of my favorite little people all dressed up for Halloween. A dragon, a chicken, a ladybug, Hermione, a fairy... I had a delicious chuckle at those munchkins and I realized how much I miss getting that love. I'm going to need a fix soon and I'll just have to find a way to get it.

All together they were small, simple moments but they made me pause.
Thanks for reading.
Lala