Hordes of criteria churning in my mind
stimulating wild dreams of blue electricity,
demons and yellow toothbrushes dissolving in my mouth.
the act of sifting through this information, this data
questioning, evaluating, discerning
leaves me with a sore head.
a heavy weight.
so many questions
elusive and grandiose
bring a rush of excitement
at the possibilities
and leave me raw and vulnerable
to the gremlins.
wondering how I get there from here?
and whether I even want to.
what would I do? how would I do it?
where to begin.
pushing to grow, doubting it's happening.
reflecting on what it takes
the angst, the debating, the seeking and searching
a virtual marathon being run
over and over.
assessing; deciding; scrutinizing
hoping.
--LML April 2010
