Ah yes, here is my deep guilt.
And my incredulous disbelief.
And my immediate sadness.
And my reluctant compassion.
And a huge desire to let the past go.
And an even bigger yearning to be living right now.
"I guess that I will always feel that had circumstances been different you and I would have made a great couple and familly and would have a familly with lovely kids maybe that would be 6 and 5 now or something. I think you would have been a great mom. Maybe we will still get the chance ... who knows."
Sigh.
