Wednesday, May 11, 2005

"Back" to Basics

It's been almost a week that I've been dealing with a painful lower back. It's not excruciating, it's just very seized... and I don't know why. I haven't done anything unusual or out of the ordinary. I felt great leading up to it - my energy level was awesome - I was doing yoga, weights, and running. And felt very strong.

I am feeling pretty frustrated by all of this. Frustrated that I am achy after going for a walk. That my usual coping mechanism (exercise) is not available to me. Frustrated that my general feeling of wellness is not present and that I am battling with weakness and achiness. Blech!

This has been good for me on a couple of levels. (Here goes my attempt at finding the silver lining.) This whole thing illustrates how much I take my body (and it's strength and fitness) for granted. It's showing me that I need to take better care of myself, and be gentle. That's hard one for me. I just want to go, go, go... "why walk when you can run" kind of philosophy. : )

I also realize that I am quite impatient. *sigh* I want to be better now.

I figure I can just will myself to feel better. D'ya think it will work?

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