25 things

This exercise was circulating on Facebook and I actually completed it. : )

1. I feel overwhelmed with lists that describe myself because I truly believe I'm not all that interesting. What's interesting about me is that I enjoy listening to people to find out why and how they are interesting.

2. I love challenges - especially when it involves confronting my fears and things that make me feel uncomfortable. (See #1 and #10)

3. I love people and I get so much energy when I am around them. A smile, a laugh, a shared joke, a long involved story, a lot of emotion.. when people share themselves with me, I walk away feeling peaceful and rewarded.

4. I raced mountain and road bikes competitively for 11 years. I was never good at it because I didn't really like it.

5. I wish I could sing. I wish I could be that person on the stage that moves people to tears with their voice.

6. My favorite thing to do is walk the streets of a city at night - when sound is muffled, familiar shapes look different in the shadows and the world sleeps. I do this less now because it freaks people out (they worry about my safety) but I did it a lot when I had a big dog who used to walk with me.

7. I have never been in a physical fight before and a part of me wishes I could experience what it would feel like. Mostly because I wonder how much of a fighter I really am, and how scared I really might be.

8. I have lived an incredibly fortunate life for which I am very grateful for. I feel very guilty about why I was given such a life and other people have lived with so much pain. It doesn't seem fair to me.

9. I love to laugh and I laugh like an idiot. There is nothing graceful, beautiful, quiet or elegant about how I laugh, but I love to do it!

10. I have a short attention span at times, and am feeling that coming up with 25 things is going to challenge me....

11. See #2.

12. I am a very tactile person. My friends and family members know that I love to touch them, hug them, be connected to them physically. (And I'm sure it also drives them crazy.)

13. I give excellent massages and thought about going back to school for massage therapy. Thankfully, I can give people massages and satisfy my desire to touch AND make them feel comfortable and relaxed at the same time.

14. I'm a happy drunk.

15. I wish I could learn how to dance. I have "white" hips and I can't seem to move them rhythmically, at all.

16. I've just discovered how much I love little people and I've also discovered how few little people there actually are in my life that I am close to. I need to change this.

17. I strive to be honest about how I feel. I'm learning that some people feel alienated by it and others gravitate to it.

18. I believe in so many aspects of the Buddhist philosophy. It resonates very deeply in my soul.

19. I have a terrible memory. I don't remember places or events, movies, lyrics, or timeframes. I have very few childhood memories. I can remember numbers and birthdays, but that's about all. It disturbs me that I have no memories, but I seem to fill myself up with experiences on a day to day basis, and then I just let them go. Maybe that's why Buddhism speaks to me.

20. I have incredible dreams. I dream every night and dream in color. My dreams are sexual, playful, adventurous, exciting, and sometimes very scary.

21. I smile when I write emails as I believe that my good vibes get sent along with the words that I type.

22. 22 is my favorite number!

23. I love cigars.

24. I have amazing friends. I don't know how I've managed to find them over the years but they are, indeed, my chosen family.

25. I know that I need to do more in this world - to help make people's live just a little bit easier - I just haven't figured out where to begin.